Monday, October 31, 2011

I still remember those days. We had so much fun

Just now I went to the petrol station to buy my breakfast, but while walking back, I changed my route suddenly, and instead of walking back to my flat and diving behind my book or computer, I went to sit down on one of those seats facing the playground.

Kindergarten kids were playing there, under their teachers' close supervision. A mother was playing badminton against her 2 kids, a woman was walking her dog and a grandmother was just walking around slowly, with the aid of her walking stick.

I saw myself at 6 years old, still new to the neighbourhood, playing at the playground every single night, making new friends that I would stick close to for the next couple of years.

At 8 years old, my friends and I were already a close group; we all went down to the playground without fail at 6.30pm every night, even though we had never agreed on it. We would have gotten bored of the playground already if alone, but with my friends, we managed to think of new things everytime.

At 10, we were climbing every pole we could climb, running around because we just could not walk, appearing at each other's house just for the plain fun of it, calling up each other more than 10 times a day just to talk about random things. We celebrated National Day together, playing with candles and sparkles.

However, during the PSLE year, we started to drift apart, too busy studying. Now, they have changed so much I dont even recognise them. I saw this boy on the bus once, and didnt even pay any attention to him until I saw his nametag. I was stunned by how much he had changed over the past 2 years. Like seriously, a lot.

Now, as I abruptly end this post, I am going off to wild wild wet to enjoy the rest of today with my current friends.


Saturday, October 29, 2011

Opening the door to a big smile and a warm welcome

I really pity those who have to go home to empty houses everyday.

Both my parents are out shopping, and I returned home from ballet class before them. The house was so dark and quiet. And as I locked the door, I felt so lonely. I guess its because its dark, so I cannot really see properly, making the house look really empty. I mean, when I come home from school in the afternoon, I am actually happy that I have the whole house to myself for a while, either for a few hours or a few minutes.

I hate coming home to empty houses at night, thats why I always make an effort to go welcome my parents everyday when they reach home after a long day at work. I have never really regarded it as anything, but now that I think about it, how big a difference this small action can make.

Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers


Lets see,

MY GPA IMPROVED! :DDDD super happy kay. If I were to draw a graph, it would sloping upwards at the same gradient. No kidding, it has been improving band by band ever since sem 1 last year. Honestly speaking, I wasn't even sure it was even going to be a 3.6 after some rather abysmal results. Like chinese compo, it was an all-time low. 39/70. But I guess there were some that I deserve to be happy about. Like Geog, 24/25. This time round it was as if I was "fortune's fool". Those that I expected to do well in turned out to be a huge disappointment, while those that I have already given up hope on turned out to be a nice surprise.

I wasn't that sure about taking triphist anymore. My history didnt even hit a 4.0. But my Geog and Lit did. Surprisingly. But after much consultation and consideration, I have decided to stick with it :)

Oh and I have no idea where my Malay marks came from. I have been getting like 2.4 and 2.8 and 3.2 for the examinations, since I have definitely been slacking off it a lot, but somehow my GP still managed a 3.6. Not complaining though.

RA. Took the entrance tests for Math and Chinese yesterday. No comment.

A total of 4 people attended training on Thursday. And nope, I am not one of them. The rest, I leave you to conclude on your own.

WE GOT INTO DRAMANITE. :) AGAIN :D Yeah, I know, we are freaking awesome. And this year, we are gonna own everyone. Heehee. Guess what I do. Haha, the curtains open and I sit there for 10 seconds, keeping a straight face, and walk off. I think our play is the best so far, its the funniest, most understandable, has the best acting, and everything is just awesome. And we are gonna use dry ice. DRY ICE. To create this misty feeling. HAH. beat that.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

As the flames wave and dance around


I lighted one of the candles Zek gave me for my birthday.

Its so pretty :)

Forever having a special place in my heart

Oh no, Harry Potter is starting to slip away. And there is no way I am going to let that happen.

Yeah, I am gonna reread the first book for the umpteenth time :)

But these just make me sad

Dear Fred,
We came into this world together. We're supposed to leave together, Fred. Together.

Dear Fred,
You really don't know how much I miss you. I'm incomplete.
Love, George

I know they said they have never left, so why can I not see you? When I talk to you, I can't hear you reply or laugh. Why?

Dear Fred,
These letters to you are making me cry.

Hey Fred,
Remember when we put or names in the Goblet of Fire? I wish that hadn't been the only time we saw each other old.

Dear Fred
Sometimes when I look in the mirror I talk to myself and pretend that you're back with me where you belong.
Love George

I remember right after watching the last film, I had already felt empty. But what really brought the tears coming was Fred's death....

Not winning doesnt mean we lost.

Honestly, I am rather disappointed.

And so are platoonmates.

And I am also pissed.

And so are platoonmates.

So, they cancelled practical section and based everything on the theory test. WTP. We may have been disqualified. Or maybe we were just stupid.

Like, since I was the one sitting nearest to the aisle, I was supposed to collect everyone's papers. But then I was still contemplating Q4 when they just started passing all their papers to me. So right, everyone's papers were with me already when I was changing my answer. And SOME FREAKING HOW, THIS MAM THOUGHT I WAS CHANGING THEIR ANSWERS FOR THEM. SHE FREAKING STOPPED ME WHILE I WAS GOING TO PASS UP THE PAPERS, AND SAID IN THIS SUPER MEAN AND SUPER FIERCE VOICE "WHY WERE YOU CHANGING THEIR ANSWERS?" IN MY HEAD, I WAS TOTALLY LIKE, OMG WTP. OBVIOUSLY I TOLD HER THE TRUTH, BUT SHE JUST STARED AT US THE WHOLE TIME UNTIL WE LEFT THE ROOM.SHE WAS SUPER SCARY KAY.

It would be super unfair if that really were the reason. :(

On a brighter note, sec 3s hugged us :)

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

turning into people with multiple personalities

Wahaha, today was an interesting day :)

I shall not go into detail about my results, just that I have been very much surprised, in both good and bad ways. Ah, maybe they shall be revealed soon...

There was orienteering training at Bishan Park at 4. And I was supposed to have a CmPS meeting at 2.30. Then, her meeting got extended and she wanted to reschedule till tomorrow. Well, too bad. Both me and Zek cannot make it. :p

sososososo, a while after tmy left, I was just hanging around class trying to memorise orienteering notes. Thenthenthen, I heard this super familiar voice. And I looked to the door and saw this super familiar hair. GUESS WHO. It was encik mimi. And she was standing at the door. Then she came in and asked me "Do you take tuition?", in this really informal way. I didnt even remember to greet, cause like come one, who freaking greets in their classroom. Hehe, they wanted to interview Vivian but didnt in the end. Encik was totally pointing at me and telling her friends "She is my junior" and pointing at V and saying "She is not my junior". Haha, Michelle was laughing her teeth off.

Alrighty, Bishan Park. Hehe, Steph and I took taxi there :) Then we took quite a while to find other platoon mates, and Bern heard sec threes' wrongly, and we totally went to the wrong place. So we had to walk from ang mo kio mrt station all the way to bishan. Orienteering prac was, uh, more like treasure hunt. Then it started raining. I shared a umbrella with 2sg Yun Shan. For like 10 seconds. And obviously I was the one holding the umbrella, cause, ahem, she is a bit short. :p

The talk crap session was really funny. Sec threes sat on staircase steps, and we sat on landing at the bottom.

2sg Xin Yu: Oh no, they are going to see my underwear.
2sg Louise: They are just going to see my PE shorts. Hahah.

Advice given by them:
1. Dont take area studies
2. Its easier to get into RA with GPA lower than 3.6 than with subject GP lower than 4.0.
3. Just 'beg' your teachers.
4. Once you get to the selection test they are not going to look at your results.
5. (2sg louise) Chem RA!
6. (2sg xin yu) Math RA!
7. (all) History!
8. History is more interesting the geog in upper sec.
9. (2sg yun shan) Don't take lit.

Oh and interesting fact: Bio RA = BRA
ISNT IT FUNNY. Apparently I was the only one in the platoon who was greatly amused at this.

(2sg geyu tries to kick 2sg yun shan who is sitting a step lower than her)
2sg geyu: OMG I just flashed!
(buries face in hands)
2sg louise: No one would have noticed if you had not pointed in out. (goes on about another incident)

Their jokes are so...lame. But...ours are no better.

Monday, October 17, 2011

That feeling when you so afraid of something that you just completely block it out.

Im talking about science. I have been refusing to think about it.

But everytime I hear snippets of conversations or glance at fb posts about it, the sinking feeling just gets worse.

Tmr, it will probably plunge the deepest.

Ah, at least it will soon be over, and I continue being a happy girl :)

Turning into a shopaholic without even realising it

I counted:

20 skirts
24 dresses
88 tops
20 shorts
10 pants

Wait, do I seriously have 88 tops? I estimated 50... Let me count agian.

Woah, now its 94.


Thursday, October 13, 2011


Today was one of the finest days I have had in the past few weeks. Except for one hitch.

So, morning was OBS check-up. It was lame. Height and weight (I dont believe I shrunk). Then the person listened to my heartbeat for like a grand total of 3 second, ticked the 'fit' box, signed his name and chopped a chop.mYeah.

Min Yi was trying to convince me to not go for class outing. And wait in school with her until we go to khatib at 3.30 for orienteering. Yeah, but checkup ended before 11.30, so if I went for class outing, I could spend 2 hours there, like maybe grab a lunch and cycle for a while.

Except it didnt turn out like this.

So we got sort of lost after getting down the bus. And we ran through this creepy underground passage screaming and other people making noises and all the sounds were echoing and everything. Plus, there was this giant hole in the ceiling in the middle and Nicole saw that and totally started screaming and running like mad.

So ECP has like areas A-F. We entered at area D, and idk why, but walked to area E. The food place there was something like kopitiam, and it didnt look very nice. Then we wasted A LOT of time standing around and doing random things and trying to think of what to do, cause apparently, Macs was at the other end. After like half an hour, we finally all went to rent bikes. Me and Vivian shared a double bike :) Cause she didnt know how to cycle. At first they wanted to give us this huge one, but it was so super big that only the tips of my toes could reach the ground and I didnt feel safe riding it at all. So we got this smaller one. Except it was a bit too small for V. She was a bit awkward, but we still went with it anyways.

Then, hohoho, guess what. Yep, we went in the wrong direction. After cycling for 15 mins, we were at area F. Uh-huh. Macs was at area C. So guess how long we took to reach there. Yep, 1 hour. Haha, everyone was rather tired at that point and it felt like we had just run a marathon. Cause you know, not only did it not rain, but the sun was freaking hot and there was no shade along the way at all. I wonder if anyone DIDNT get tanned. People were either red, or pale. And black. At that point, it was already 2.15. I had planned to leave at 2.45, but we still had to cycle all the way back to return the bikes, and obviously I was going to be super late. I wasnt really thinking cause I was so hungry and tired and thirsty, that I just sat down and enjoyed my meal :) It was around 3pm when we started cycling back, and then it hit me. Oh no, I am not gonna make it in time. And even if I reach there, I wouldnt be able to run cause I would probably just faint half way. So, I got V to call Zek cause she could totally just sit at the back and take her hands off the handle and her feet off the pedals. Yeah, we sort of took turns pedalling, like I would take my feet off and she pedal for a while, then my turn. But V's feet kept falling off. And our bike was really slow. Like everyone was overtaking us. Haha, then we both cycled super fast until we lost control of the pedal and just whooshed along the road. :D

Afterwards, basically just fooling around the beach and playing random things. :) 4 people freaking dived into the sea. Audrey, Janelle, Myrth and Bem. I was just running around trying to avoid getting splashed cause I didnt bring change of clothes and couldnt afford to get wet. But, obviously I still did. And there was sand in the back of my shirt. So, guess what I did. I moved both my arms inside my shirt, and tried to get the sand off. Haha, must have looked rather amusing. Oh, in the end, I changed back into my PE shirt and shorts. And Michelle said that I had to wear culottes.

Cynthia sent me home. Well, not home, to Clementi. :) I met my mom there and we went for a sushi + ramen dinner and shopping.

I really really enjoyed myself today. And I declare :

I LOVE 213'11.

And, yeah, if you want photos, go look at FB.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Every year I want an enriching holiday, but it never happens. But this year it will.

1. Do 50 hours of CIP (Not that hard, right? It is only a little bit more than 2 days)
2. Visit every platoonmate's house (Me and zek wanted to do this last year)
3. Go shopping at Bugis (I have been meaning to in like forever. And apparently the stuff there are cheap and good :))
4. Eat lots of junk food (Maybe not too much. But I cant control myself)
5. Exercise and stretch (It is super effective. Believe me)
6. Run 3-4 times per week (No less, no more. While I want to keep fit, I dont want bulging muscles in my legs.)
7. Complete my compo notebooks that I started last year (Er they were supposed to be completed last year, so...)
8. Go out with friends and cousins (duh.)
9. Read all the books that I bought but have not read (They come up to a total of no less than 36)
10. Makeover my room (I am gonna get a new bookshelf, which means my whole room will have to be re-orientated)
11. Master basic make-up (Yes, master. Like its perfect the first time you put in on. Now, it looks okay sometimes but other times its just hideous)
12. Put in effort for presents for company chalet (Yuppies)



Today 2sg Yun Shan commanded during morning assembly. And apparently, she came to school just to command. Er, a bit the weird leh. Like instead of Genevieve, it was Ashlynna, and the conductor was also a sec 4. Why the commander a sec 3 huh?

Orienteering training cancelled cause of the bad weather. haha, we were going to run 15 km. 15 freaking km! I can barely run 5km, and they want us to run 15 km! Wearing this hideous outfit. OMG dont even get me started on the attire. Well, too late. GUESS WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO WEAR. T-SHIRT IS NORMAL. YES. BUT THATS ABOUT WHERE THE NORMALITY STOPS. TRACK PANTS. WHOA. I MEAN OK LAH, WE HAVE HAD TO WEAR THEM ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS. THEN COMBAT BOOTS. CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE THAT. OMG. I know this is to prepare for competition, but still. At least something that I can bear to show my face with? Yeah, I want to look normal. Nevermind, I shall go running on my own later. Wearing normal running clothes. Like shirt shorts and running shoes. But I am looking forward to orienteering course tomorrow, cuz its fun fun fun. :)

Monday, October 10, 2011

Certain people may not be able to comprehend the post below

Ok, I just read something and find it really amusing.


Ok, that must have been really embarrassing.

OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU DID THAT. Really that desperate?

I wish I could say here what I read, but...

Today we celebrate the day a group of 10 awesome people were brought together

YAY. Platoon birthday! Haha, looks like we are going to be celebrating at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve.

Today, I reached home the time I woke up yesterday.

I have yet to start on my Malay revision.

I am actually not jealous of those who are done with their exams. Hmm, I thought I would be. If I were the other party, I would be gloating like mad.

I see Malay as my last chance to pull up my grades. THEN WHY AM I NOT STUDYING FOR IT?

Now that I have finished watching Ugly Betty for like the 5th time, I am watching The Big Bang Theory for like the 5th time. I started watching the new episodes yesterday, then couldnt resist going back to watch the older episodes. Awwww.

Here I am slacking at home with Malay exam as my reason for not going for Orienteering training. I SHOULD BE USING THIS TIME FOR MALAY.

I am looking forward to P-EYA. Have got tons of activities coming up.


I transferred my LJ here :)

Saturday, October 8, 2011














Thursday, October 6, 2011

I want more nice clothes in my wardrobe


I think i am crazy over SNSD now.

Aish, they are good.

But no, they are not going to become my new desktop picture.

Haha, I have a poster of them in my room :)

"Part As are going crazy" "Yeah, can tell"

We were singing Janelle her birthday song, then while dragging her name I heard people at the back joining in, and also cheering at the end of the song. And guess who these people were. Yeah, you guessed it.

But Michelle didnt hear their greeting :( I was trying to cheer her up after a super depressing science paper, so I was telling her to look out for people greeting me. And since they are greeting sec two, so...Michelle is sec two! But she didnt hear it! Haha, in the end Audrey cheered her up. :)



Wednesday, October 5, 2011


Oh man, I really want to stop piano lessons. My mum has allowed me to stop lessons with this teacher, but she wants me to carry on with another teacher. I really dont want to.

I am totally not the musical type. I dread piano lessons, cant sing to save my life and only want music for entertainment and dancing.

My mom's reason is that she already bought that piano and I was the one who wanted to start learning in the first place. But, I seriously have no interest. It will just be a total waste of time and money. My mom seems to have this idea that I can somehow be this part-time piano teacher next time. THAT IS SO NOT GONNA HAPPEN. Why the hell would I want to torture myself like that? And she also seems to think that I will be giving up something that I have already spent so much time on. But I only started learning 3 years ago, which is a rather short time compared to others who have been learning for like what, 10 years? AND IT WOULD BE A EVEN BIGGER WASTE OF TIME IF I SPENT MORE TIME ON IT.

I used to think that being able to play the piano would be so cool and I would be able to vent my anger and frustration on the piano. But that was before I started to like dance. Now I have ballet and kpop, and would soooo rather spend my time on that that being stuck in front of this instrument. When I am sad, angry, pissed, emo, wtv, what do I do? I stretch. I dance. I learn kpop. I stand on toes. I pirouette until I am dizzy. When do I play the piano? When I am forced to.

stopping lessons doesnt mean I will stop playing the piano. Sometimes, it is nice to play your favourite song or just play random things. But lessons just make everything so BORING.


Monday, October 3, 2011

Blogging allows me to concentrate better

Yep, the title is totally true. For me at least. I guess its because I am getting all my jumbled thoughts straightened out and spilling them out to this machine.

I cannot freaking concentrate on Geog now. I know the facts, just that I dont know them at my fingertips. Like, I can regurgitate everything without sneaking peeks at my notes.

Throat was really scratchy in the afternoon. Lol, probably my own fault though. Ate like 2 packs of potato chips plus ice-cream. Relieve stress.

Just don't fall sick can already. OMG last year's EYA was a horrible horrible experience. Cause I was sick.

I dont remember how or when i got sick, but it really terrible. For History, I was just shivering in my seat, with this thin jacket snugly zipped and everything. I was even hugging my knees. I just had enough energy to hold up the pen and write, but my thoughts were really messed up. Like I would read the question several times without comprehending it, then force myself to concentrate, but the words would just become all blurry. Hell, I dont even know how I managed to pass that paper.

The night before Chemistry, I was burning up a lot. I was reading my notes on my bed at like 8pm, drinking cold vitagen to try to bring my temp down. I actually fell asleep in the middle of trying to memorise acids and stuff. But I woke up like 10 mins later and dragged myself out of bed. I was really scared for Chem, plus the Malay paper after that.

During Chem, I brought this thick jacket plus a shawl, and just wrapped myself up. Haha, it must been rather comical, come to think of it. I barely survived the paper, and sort of blurrily did my Malay. I guess I was motivated by the fact that it was the last paper. Then, with like no energy left, I cabbed home and crashed on my bed for 4 hours.

In the end, I still went for NCO's outing that night. Cause I really didnt want to miss it. :)

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Exams cannot stop your life from going on

Writing a diary manually is tiring. Thats why I prefer blogging. But that are some things that are only meant for my eyes, and the Internet is a dangerous place. My hand hurts from writing so much. Not a smart idea, since Chinese comprehension tomorrow is going to be a super lot of writing at a fast pace.

I gor 2 instant win Big Mac. YAY. :)

Should I cut my hair? I really want long hair, but if I don't cut now, I will have to wait at least one year. Or should I just cut my bangs/fringe. They started out to be this really nice fringe, then my mom thought it was too long so it became short ugly bangs. Then nicer long bangs. Then 'illegal', so I swept them to the side, turning them to a fringe. But if you let them loose, they are still straight bangs, except that they touch my chin. So...

Michelle Lim messaged me to tell me to wear 'professional socks'......

Oh dear I dont have the energy to run anymore now that ballet is so tiring and my brain is being used more. I think I am going to suffer during training for orienteering. :(

Should I learn piano for the sake of exams or for the sake of playing? I dunno. Its like, if I want to take the exams faster, than I can take grade 7 next year. If I want to build up my skills, then Grade 7 the following year. Mom wants to finish grade 8 in sec 4, teacher wants to build foundation. so its my choice. how.

I have this earring stand full with nice pretty glittery earrings. I have no earholes. How awesome. Been begging my mom to let me pierce. Maybe I will try my luck again this holidays.