Lethargy - Every time after sunday ballet lesson, listening to music during the walk home, the footsteps become heavier, the back becomes slouchier, the shoulders become droopier. A long week just passed, yet another long week is just mere hours ahead.
Anxiousness - So many things unclear of, so many doubts to clarify, so little time for everything.
Pain - Calf muscles are freaking sore. My toes feel like they are permanently being pinched. There is something that looks like an extra bone but my dad claims is just a blister on both of my fourth toes.
Thirst - Due to plain laziness preventing me from getting up from this super comfortable position.
Loss - Mum away on holiday for the next 2 days means no one to wake me up in the morning. I am completely capable of sleeping through alarms and my dad is super unreliable in this area so...hoping that I can wake up tomorrow despite the foresight of super little sleep.
Nostalgia - We are freaking temping tomorrow. This day and everything else after this day has always seemed so unreachable, but it is TOMORROW. On a side note, I just realised how interesting company's birthdays are.
Sweetness - Yup I just went to get myself a cup of iced green tea.
Uncertainty - So many things going on this week, I have no idea how things will turn out.
Dilemma - You know how I used to just search for xiaozhu videos, but this whole weekend I only searched for xiaogui videos. And you know how my phone used to contain only xiaozhu's music, but I now have every single xiaogui's music. Xiaozhu or xiaogui?
Joy - Its okay, I can have both! Or maybe the two of them get together and become one. Aw, that will be so sweet.
Un-achievement - Just tidied my room 2 weeks ago, why is it so messy again?
Amazement - How have I been able to neglect xiaogui's cuteness all this while?
I thought I saw 23:00 when it was 22:00. So now I suddenly have one extra hour. And here I am wasting it away. How efficient.
I think pranks are mean. Especially those shows like just for laughs and the jap game shows. Yes, it is a bit funny, but so mean :( People just wanted to use the toilet, then end up kena raised out of the cubicle or kena go for sled ride.
People should tell me meanings of things. Then I wouldnt have to go around finding out. I have already learnt not to google stuff people tell me to go and find out on my own. Smart right. And people telling me I don't need to know the meaning of what they just said doesn't work either. I will find out somehow.
Argh should have gone to sleep at 8. Then I wouldnt be aware of all these work that started piling in after 9. And now I am super tired after chionging out a piece of very unsatisfactory work that I turned in anyway because I just can't be bothered anymore.
I can feel my brain juice being squeezed out.
Having 5 active google accounts does not help either. Everyone is sending different stuff to different accounts. No sort of organization whatsoever, not unlike the 2 drawer compartments of my wardrobe.
Today after I got home I didn't even slack. That is a super great achievement can. But I need my slack time.
I think I am going to have a surviving-half-the-week-reward for myself tomorrow.
How did I allow this book to sit in the corner of my bookshelf for the past 9 months, doing nothing but gathering dust.
How did I even manage to find it at a second-hand book sale 9 months ago.
How did I go through the past few months without finishing an actual (story)book.
How could I have not borrowed any library books for such a long time.
How could I have let myself forget how blissful it is to be able to delve into another world and spend an entire day in it.
How could I have let amazing stories that gave me goosebumps fade from memory.
This morning I woke up with a super desperate craving. I was craving for a good book, desperate to find back that feeling of being lost in a good book. I was originally going to reread shopaholic, but I figured it would take a long time to finish the whole series, so I just picked up a random book slotted right beside that series. So glad that I did. The feelings are coming back bit by bit, but I hardly have enough time to make them stay. And they make me guilty. Because its like if I have the time to read storybooks, then I should spend that time reading textbooks or chinese compositions or music scores or other boring mundane stuff.
Not gonna go to sleep until my grandma and cousin gets here. And apparently their flight has been delayed. So by the time they reach Singapore, travel across Singapore to get here, open suitcases that are full of surprises, talk a bit, and finally settle in, it would be time to get ready for school already.
Why can't I be on holiday like my cousin? Then I wouldn't have to go to school tomorrow, or for the rest of the one month that they are here. Then I wouldn't have to face exams and all other sorts of assessments and just chill and relax and home. Then I wouldn't have to wear the same boring attire everyday and be able to dress up according to my mood each day.
Oh dear, I miss my holidays sooooooo much. And other people from other countries just have to keep rubbing it in. Cause they are on freaking summer breaks that last up till 3 months!
I just went running. In a hoodie. Haha got a few weird looks from other people. But super shiok can. Haven't ran since napfa before the holidays.
The running during PT last Monday was slower than my normal walking speed, so I guess that is not counted.
Okay, so today's run wasn't that fast either, but it was such a different feeling running in a hoodie. I think the reason why I was wearing a hoodie was because it was super cold in the evening, and I was too lazy to take it off before starting the run, so I just kept it on.
Oh and my hair was in a side braid. Cause that was the hairstyle in the evening and if you turn it into a normal ponytail for the run the hair would be all curly and crazed up.
Haha one day I am going to go running in a bikini. Under appropriate circumstances, obviously.
A few weeks ago she was looking through my accessories and she saw quite a number of owl stuff. Then a few days ago she went to australia for competition and she bought me a super adorable owl necklace there.
During the holidays she spent a super lot of time at my house. And I influenced her to watch Hot Shot and 娱乐百分百. Haha she rooted for my darling's team :D
I have posters and pictures on my wall, and she recognised my darlings :) Well, to be fair, she recognised one direction too. Apparently a lot of people in her class are crazy over them? No, don't judge me. Their poster was on the back of my door and its only there because i think louis is rather cute.
Hoho when she starts to appreciate guys I'm gonna make her fall in love with my darlings. :p